[ somewhere in the back of her mind, she knows the longer this goes on, the harder she'll fall, and the more complicated it'll be to explain herself to silco. jinx knows she can't hide this little incident from her father for too long, and given how her father dislikes him (probably way more than quentin) — how would she ever explain this?
he would want him dead for sure, and given he and his sister already played that game, silco might go for another round. and then what? maybe it'll be okay to not tell her father right away, maybe once she muses more over it and stitch words together, she will. that wouldn't be lying, would it? jinx would like to hope not. but this doesn't make things official between them, definitely not. the teen made it perfectly clear they can not be together, so they won't. what's happening right now is just.... dabbling, pretending. kissing is just kissing, and it feels so heavenly that she can't seem to tug herself away from him. and when she feels his tongue grazing over her lip, her own meets his and leans further in to twist their kiss open mouth with her tongue toying with his.
a hand claws gingerly behind his head, scratching and massage along his scalps with her light, pointed fingernails. she hums into their kiss too, really letting herself free to nose dive in their secret place. eventually, the two of them will need to break away for air, but jinx is fine with suffocating if their kiss leads to it. everyone in this realm dies so horribly, and if she were to die then resurrect, this will be the most lovely way to do it. ]
[In all honesty Ekko wasn't too concerned about what her father might think about the two of them acting on their emotions, if he truly wished for her to be happy the man should accept whomever she chooses to share herself. He wasn't afraid of voicing that opinion to Silco himself either whenever the time came. It was painfully obvious they harbored feelings of devotion towards one another after this intimate affair and he would fight to achieve their desires even if it meant confronting her father head on to do so. They would cross that bridge when the time came for now he was simply contented to fall into the blissful embrace shared betwixt them. Although it was a far stretch to assume they were dating by any means he wouldn't be completely adverse to such a thing even if Jinx herself was adamant it would never happen. For Ekko could tell she wanted this just as much as he did by her immediate course of action. They would take things at her pace and not force anything she was not comfortable with for he hardly knew how to navigate a relationship by any means himself.
As they breach one another's lips to battle their tongues against each others in a frenzied affair, her hands threading through his tussled locks, Ekko cannot contain the lustful moan that echoes between them again. He was falling harder and faster the longer this kept up but all good things came to an end as the boy finally pulls back gasping for breath sporadically. Slowly opening his eyes in a glazed over haze, staring back into those piercing pinks, the tip of his lips curl into a sincere smile.]
So...Do you believe me now?
[Teasing her just a little bit as he gently pressed his forehead to her own with a calming sigh, closing his eyes again nudging his nose against her own in an affectionate manner.]
I meant what I said, Jinx. Every word of it. I'm not running from my feelings anymore and you shouldn't either.
[ if it weren't for the boy savior breaking their contact for air, this whole incident would have gone into a way heated direction. it was for the best, really. jinx is a loose cannon and unpredictable, and one should be wise enough to walk on eggshells around her. especially when it comes to intimacy like this, something she's been longing for since quentin's disappearance, and been using the locals to fill in the void.
but it wasn't the same for her with the locals, and to use them to pleasure herself between her thighs felt so empty and disconnected. whenever she would glance down to see the unrecognizable face, bitterness filled her heart and thumped in cold rhythms. and it would often leave her little oral sex play to end on a quick note, if not in a disrespectful one. with them, she would never reciprocate, let alone let them see or touch anywhere else on her body besides below the waist. in her eyes, the locals weren't people — just ones and zeros that the council cooked up to be a part of their system. as far as she's concerned, they were no different from a sex toy object. just a little more advanced. ]
[ but with ekko... it's entirely different because she knows he is real, and someone who knows her inside and out, and front to back. and with him sealing a kiss with her washed away all of her doubts (and the voices') of his hypothetical cruel intentions. he... likes her, he wants to be with her. he thinks she is worthy of love like all the other couples, despite she is a jinx. and fondness balloons in her chest when she smiles faintly in return, then nods that yes, she does believe him now. ]
[ yet, the beam is extremely short-lived as she nuzzles her nose against his when she speaks, shaking her head to disagree. ]
I'm not... running away from my feelings, Ekko. I'm just trying to stay in our reality. It... doesn't matter if I want to be with you or not, I... I can't be with you. This won't work between us.
[Little did Ekko know about his counterpart's devious thoughts which were at the forefront of her mind but would have been quite taken aback in truth considering his lack of sexual experience. After all this had been the first time he'd even kissed a girl let alone think about something so forward as sex being quite naive by comparison to the girl. He wasn't mad at the lucky individuals who'd gotten that far with Jinx for that was neither here nor there but maybe just maybe a little bit jealous.
A sincere smile quickly falls over his lips when she nods in agreement to his question but is almost instantly met with a conflicted shake of her head as well. What was stopping her from giving into her true desire? Was it her father's ideologies tided in with past trauma in her previous relationships? It was hard to say but all he could do was sigh with a simplistic nod of his head in understanding. He wouldn't force the subject any further as he pulls back a bit with a saddened expression, cupping both her hands tightly in his own holding her gaze once again as he spoke plainly.]
Is it our past that haunts you? Or is it something...more?
[He's genuinely confused as to why she thinks they cannot move past their previous issues, especially when the trials of their home would not follow them here in Aldrip. Finally letting go of her the boy slowly raised to his feet with a somber look stricken over his face followed in short by a shake of his head in return.]
I don't believe that. Besides...You are the only person I've ever felt any sort of attachment. For years I've tried to deny it but I am tired of making excuses and fighting against what I know is the truth.
[A beat as his face softens a bit trying to break the uneasy tension in the air, extending a hand out to help Jinx onto her feet as well.]
[ jinx nips at her bottom lip to prevent herself from answering that money prize question. because beyond her father, her rough first love experience, and her fear of abandonment, there is one other key element to why she believes they can't be any more than what they already are. and that crucial thing is shimmer.
it's not too uncommon of its existence, otherwise, how else is she able to function for this long? but how much of the serum is being hidden away in aldrip is something no one is aware of besides her and silco. and with santa the council bringing in the supplies to them at random, will it be a matter of time until the others to discover it? she knows of their hatred of shimmer, ekko more so than anyone.
and jinx has no doubt in her mind that he will try to dispose of it if shimmer ever saw the light of day. the talk of starting over sounds gorgeous, and she would give just about anything to redo everything — even some aspects of her life here in aldrip. but she's smart enough to know that as long as shimmer existed in this world, there will always be that conflict between them, the thing that will keep them from being united. so the teenager refrains and continues to keep a tight lip about it, but her heart instantly jolts in dread when ekko gathers to his feet.
is he going to leave her now? is this the moment where he gives up, and they part ways? it's for the best, but it rattles her heart, and her gaze pounces upward to the boy with slight worry. but it all diminishes when he continues to speak, his sentences going against her wild assumptions, and it hits her then that... the thought of ekko leaving right now in general is upsetting. he obviously can't stay in the treehouse with her forever, but... she doesn't want him to leave right this second either. ]
[ his counterpart watches him closely, listening carefully too, as he extends out his hand to her. she is reluctant to take it, but it's the three words that he says next that swells her heart so tremendously that tears almost leak at the corner of her eyelids.
'i want you.'
her breath catches as her lips quiver, her pinks dart between his hand and his face. jinx ducks her head down in an attempt to shield her expression, but it's easy to spot what emotion is overtaking her by the shake of her shoulders, and the pink droplet of tears landing on the floorboards. someone wants her, wants her, despite how different she is, regardless of how uncivil people say she is, although they've voiced how much of a problem she is, or how she will be silco's downfall (which happened). regardless of all of this, there is still someone who sees her and longs for her.
choking on a sob, jinx doesn't take his hand, but pushes herself off the floor, then launches herself into his chest. with her eyes shut so tight, jinx clings to him in desperation and fear that if she were to let go of him now, he'll vanish into thin air and through her fingers. ]
D-Dont... [ she starts, hiccuping through her words. ] Don't throw me away...please.
[Sure they had their differences in many aspects and they wouldn't always agree on things but that didn't mean Ekko would give up on her. Even when it came to shimmer, although he despised what the drug had done to the masses of Zuan, culling them under its effects as Silco used it both to subjugate and empower the people depending on the person he knew Jinx now relied on it for survival. She probably wouldn't have been here today if it hadn't been for Singed using its potent abilities to save the girl from the brink of death and was thankful for that much even if he wished there could have been another way. Eventually there would come a time when they talked about how she was able to sustain herself here in Aldrip but that would be a long time coming.
When she looks upwards to the hand offered then back to his face without accepting it a grimace look falls over his lips though was swiftly met by an unexpected turn of events. Tears begin to pour from Jinx’s eyes causing him to gasp audibly and before he can even react she leaps from her perch to embrace him in a tight hold. The sobbed words that usher forth cause his jaw to go slack in awe, caught off guard until finally wrapping his arms about her in turn. Tucking his cheek against the top of her head the boy shakes his own silently until he whispers out softly in a reassuring manner.]
I would never do that…Not after everything we’ve gone through together. Even if we had our fair share of differences, I always cared about you, Jinx. I always will.
[They could stay like this as long as she pleased, Ekko in no rush to leave her especially in such a vulnerable state of mind. He knew she was conflicted and something was clearly stopping her from giving into her true desire but wouldn't continue to press the issue.]
[ how embarrassing this is, to have a raven squawking and wailing in distress at a prey she is meant to eat or demolish. if anyone else saw her now (especially from home), they would think twice about silco's so-called prodigy, and maybe execute her as a sign of mercy. jinx pulls away slightly, sniffing and rubbing off any excessive tears and snot with the back of her hand before blinking up to the boy before her.
she's still so unsure about all of this, and knows damn well that being with him will cause a lot of strife. she knows her heart is beating for him, but there's hurt swirling all around it too, if not slightly skipping a beat for quentin every so often too. all of this is confusing, and happening so unexpectedly, but there's one thing she knows for sure... — and that something is that he is real. ekko is in front of her, just like he said, and their kiss felt real too. so if her world crumbles into itty bitty pieces, and she can no longer tell what reality is what, at least... she can make their kiss her starting point.
so with that, jinx stands on her toes again — her hand carefully stirs to cup gingerly at the back of his head as she tilts her own. closer and closer her lips reaches his, until they meet one more time. this kiss she plants on him is different, not as feverish, but there's fondness flowing through it. maybe aldrip finally broke her and made her go completely bonkers. but so what if she is bonkers? all the best people are, they say. ]
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Date: 2024-07-27 10:43 pm (UTC)he would want him dead for sure, and given he and his sister already played that game, silco might go for another round. and then what? maybe it'll be okay to not tell her father right away, maybe once she muses more over it and stitch words together, she will. that wouldn't be lying, would it? jinx would like to hope not. but this doesn't make things official between them, definitely not. the teen made it perfectly clear they can not be together, so they won't. what's happening right now is just.... dabbling, pretending. kissing is just kissing, and it feels so heavenly that she can't seem to tug herself away from him. and when she feels his tongue grazing over her lip, her own meets his and leans further in to twist their kiss open mouth with her tongue toying with his.
a hand claws gingerly behind his head, scratching and massage along his scalps with her light, pointed fingernails. she hums into their kiss too, really letting herself free to nose dive in their secret place. eventually, the two of them will need to break away for air, but jinx is fine with suffocating if their kiss leads to it. everyone in this realm dies so horribly, and if she were to die then resurrect, this will be the most lovely way to do it. ]
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Date: 2024-07-29 01:42 am (UTC)As they breach one another's lips to battle their tongues against each others in a frenzied affair, her hands threading through his tussled locks, Ekko cannot contain the lustful moan that echoes between them again. He was falling harder and faster the longer this kept up but all good things came to an end as the boy finally pulls back gasping for breath sporadically. Slowly opening his eyes in a glazed over haze, staring back into those piercing pinks, the tip of his lips curl into a sincere smile.]
So...Do you believe me now?
[Teasing her just a little bit as he gently pressed his forehead to her own with a calming sigh, closing his eyes again nudging his nose against her own in an affectionate manner.]
I meant what I said, Jinx. Every word of it. I'm not running from my feelings anymore and you shouldn't either.
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Date: 2024-07-29 04:30 pm (UTC)but it wasn't the same for her with the locals, and to use them to pleasure herself between her thighs felt so empty and disconnected. whenever she would glance down to see the unrecognizable face, bitterness filled her heart and thumped in cold rhythms. and it would often leave her little oral sex play to end on a quick note, if not in a disrespectful one. with them, she would never reciprocate, let alone let them see or touch anywhere else on her body besides below the waist. in her eyes, the locals weren't people — just ones and zeros that the council cooked up to be a part of their system. as far as she's concerned, they were no different from a sex toy object. just a little more advanced. ]
[ but with ekko... it's entirely different because she knows he is real, and someone who knows her inside and out, and front to back. and with him sealing a kiss with her washed away all of her doubts (and the voices') of his hypothetical cruel intentions. he... likes her, he wants to be with her. he thinks she is worthy of love like all the other couples, despite she is a jinx. and fondness balloons in her chest when she smiles faintly in return, then nods that yes, she does believe him now. ]
[ yet, the beam is extremely short-lived as she nuzzles her nose against his when she speaks, shaking her head to disagree. ]
I'm not... running away from my feelings, Ekko. I'm just trying to stay in our reality. It... doesn't matter if I want to be with you or not, I... I can't be with you. This won't work between us.
You'd be... better off with someone else. Not me.
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Date: 2024-07-31 01:57 am (UTC)A sincere smile quickly falls over his lips when she nods in agreement to his question but is almost instantly met with a conflicted shake of her head as well. What was stopping her from giving into her true desire? Was it her father's ideologies tided in with past trauma in her previous relationships? It was hard to say but all he could do was sigh with a simplistic nod of his head in understanding. He wouldn't force the subject any further as he pulls back a bit with a saddened expression, cupping both her hands tightly in his own holding her gaze once again as he spoke plainly.]
Is it our past that haunts you? Or is it something...more?
[He's genuinely confused as to why she thinks they cannot move past their previous issues, especially when the trials of their home would not follow them here in Aldrip. Finally letting go of her the boy slowly raised to his feet with a somber look stricken over his face followed in short by a shake of his head in return.]
I don't believe that. Besides...You are the only person I've ever felt any sort of attachment. For years I've tried to deny it but I am tired of making excuses and fighting against what I know is the truth.
[A beat as his face softens a bit trying to break the uneasy tension in the air, extending a hand out to help Jinx onto her feet as well.]
I want you. Its always been you, Jinx.
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Date: 2024-07-31 08:05 pm (UTC)it's not too uncommon of its existence, otherwise, how else is she able to function for this long? but how much of the serum is being hidden away in aldrip is something no one is aware of besides her and silco. and with
santathe council bringing in the supplies to them at random, will it be a matter of time until the others to discover it? she knows of their hatred of shimmer, ekko more so than anyone.and jinx has no doubt in her mind that he will try to dispose of it if shimmer ever saw the light of day. the talk of starting over sounds gorgeous, and she would give just about anything to redo everything — even some aspects of her life here in aldrip. but she's smart enough to know that as long as shimmer existed in this world, there will always be that conflict between them, the thing that will keep them from being united. so the teenager refrains and continues to keep a tight lip about it, but her heart instantly jolts in dread when ekko gathers to his feet.
is he going to leave her now? is this the moment where he gives up, and they part ways? it's for the best, but it rattles her heart, and her gaze pounces upward to the boy with slight worry. but it all diminishes when he continues to speak, his sentences going against her wild assumptions, and it hits her then that... the thought of ekko leaving right now in general is upsetting. he obviously can't stay in the treehouse with her forever, but... she doesn't want him to leave right this second either. ]
[ his counterpart watches him closely, listening carefully too, as he extends out his hand to her. she is reluctant to take it, but it's the three words that he says next that swells her heart so tremendously that tears almost leak at the corner of her eyelids.
'i want you.'
her breath catches as her lips quiver, her pinks dart between his hand and his face. jinx ducks her head down in an attempt to shield her expression, but it's easy to spot what emotion is overtaking her by the shake of her shoulders, and the pink droplet of tears landing on the floorboards. someone wants her, wants her, despite how different she is, regardless of how uncivil people say she is, although they've voiced how much of a problem she is, or how she will be silco's downfall (which happened). regardless of all of this, there is still someone who sees her and longs for her.
choking on a sob, jinx doesn't take his hand, but pushes herself off the floor, then launches herself into his chest. with her eyes shut so tight, jinx clings to him in desperation and fear that if she were to let go of him now, he'll vanish into thin air and through her fingers. ]
D-Dont... [ she starts, hiccuping through her words. ] Don't throw me away...please.
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Date: 2024-08-03 12:11 am (UTC)When she looks upwards to the hand offered then back to his face without accepting it a grimace look falls over his lips though was swiftly met by an unexpected turn of events. Tears begin to pour from Jinx’s eyes causing him to gasp audibly and before he can even react she leaps from her perch to embrace him in a tight hold. The sobbed words that usher forth cause his jaw to go slack in awe, caught off guard until finally wrapping his arms about her in turn. Tucking his cheek against the top of her head the boy shakes his own silently until he whispers out softly in a reassuring manner.]
I would never do that…Not after everything we’ve gone through together. Even if we had our fair share of differences, I always cared about you, Jinx. I always will.
[They could stay like this as long as she pleased, Ekko in no rush to leave her especially in such a vulnerable state of mind. He knew she was conflicted and something was clearly stopping her from giving into her true desire but wouldn't continue to press the issue.]
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Date: 2024-08-10 05:28 pm (UTC)she's still so unsure about all of this, and knows damn well that being with him will cause a lot of strife. she knows her heart is beating for him, but there's hurt swirling all around it too, if not slightly skipping a beat for quentin every so often too. all of this is confusing, and happening so unexpectedly, but there's one thing she knows for sure... — and that something is that he is real. ekko is in front of her, just like he said, and their kiss felt real too. so if her world crumbles into itty bitty pieces, and she can no longer tell what reality is what, at least... she can make their kiss her starting point.
so with that, jinx stands on her toes again — her hand carefully stirs to cup gingerly at the back of his head as she tilts her own. closer and closer her lips reaches his, until they meet one more time. this kiss she plants on him is different, not as feverish, but there's fondness flowing through it. maybe aldrip finally broke her and made her go completely bonkers. but so what if she is bonkers? all the best people are, they say. ]